Well, no matter how prepared you are to celebrate 25 years of your existence, on the actual day, it still feels unreal. I don’t mean at like the exact hour 12 am, but in general, the whole thing about turning 25 is daunting. This whole adulting thing is in general, daunting.

Any aspect of your life that you do not have figured out yet, you feel like you should have already figured out by now. And this is happening while continuously second guessing the things that you have figured out already.

Somewhere in your heart, you feel like there is so much to do in life and there is a part of you which is also saying ah, you have been through enough.

So, basically, as Taylor Swift says “We’re happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time. It’s miserable and magical.” She says this about being 22 though. Nevermind, maybe I am a boomer.

If you look through the video, you will notice the tagline on her shirt. I think that could be the tagline of my life too. Let me explain.

A Lot Going On At The Moment

Yes, I think that is a perfect tagline for my life right now. The part that sucks the most is the follow up contradictions.

• Trying to lose weight while also trying to not skip meals or eat less.
• Trying to get promoted while also trying to strive for perfect work life balance.
• Trying to read everyday while also not sticking to only genres that I seem to like.
• Trying to chill out and watch movies while also not watching cringe shows but watch something that is informational and good to know about.
• Trying to reduce social media usage while also trying to keep up with long lost friends.
• Trying to go to sleep at the right time while also trying to get as much done in the day as I can.
• Trying to save money while also trying to not have FOMO.
• Trying to always be available for your close ones while also trying to maintain safe boundaries.
• Trying to find love while also trying to be completely happy by yourself.
• Heck, trying to write this blog post and share my personal story while also not sharing too much.

You get the gist. I have a long long list.

It is weird, right? I cannot make up my mind about a lot of things as you can make out from here. But well, the good part is how each item in the list starts with the word “try”, which really gives me a good sense of comfort. There is a sense of comfort in knowing that you can always try, and an equal sense of comfort kicks in when you write each of these down and it becomes clearer to you, that these long lists aren’t specific to a year or an age.

You have to do it all your life. Concentrate on all the million things that make up a good life. A contradiction in it’s own way. How could you be concentrating if you have like a million things on your plate? Well, I guess that is what we need to work on. The focus should always be on leading a good life. And well, the task is to figure out what’s good for you?

Okay, so, well I think this post was just a small rant I needed to express. But as for me, the best thing is I am really motivated, entering this next year, to create a life that I am extremely proud of and I have no doubt, it is going to be a long, wild but fun journey. Wish me good luck!

That’s all for this time I guess. Thank you so much for reading through this. Read more on what I am up to here. Also, the challenges that I am working on here.

Read more about me here 🙂

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Feya Shah

Living life one day at a time and on the side, telling you about it!